I have no idea. I just want to write. How important are those who are not the writer but who take care of all of it. Indispensible. At the moment I am preparing to return to the cave after a almost 2 weeks of being allowed to breath realities air. Met with MO, DV, SW, Barb, Sharon, spoke by email to DV - hope to meet him this week. Want things a little tidy so I can return to the cave and become the frenetic one again. I fear the cave, but it is like my drug, my impossible and compelling chase in the chasm. I am not successful. Why do I suffer myself again. I do not know, yet.






































